Recently a friend asked me if I thought that my life turned out the way I thought it would when I was younger. I found that a double-edged question because it implied that my life was almost over and perhaps it is in a sense. From the other stand point it implies that perhaps he isn't happy with what is going on in his life?
I don’t think that I planned anything. Not even a career for my life. I suppose that I just thought I would get married and have a family. Along the way, I would do the best at what ever happened. Isn't that what was expected of me?
I have often talked to my sisters about this. Had I married my high school sweetheart, I could have been a big person in a small pond. Moving to California was very good for me. I got to be a little fish in a big pond. This was necessary for my spiritual growth. Isn't it wonderful the way the whole system works?
By moving to a different place on this planet, I bumped into many ideas and philosophies that I would never have explored had I stayed near where I grew up.
The box that I was raised in kept getting smaller and smaller as I learned about Tao, or Reincarnation, or how different cultures think. We are lead to believe that all people think the same but they don't. They think according to the history and patterns that have been a part of in their cultures.
What I learned was that until you have experienced something, it usually isn't real to you so how does one go about getting new experiences? Well, I think an actress said it well she when said, "You have to go out on a limb to get the best fruit." When we step out of our comfort zones, then we really learn. The universe will open to us. That can't be accomplished while living in fear. Most people live there. They don't think that they do but they do.
I remember driving to Green Bay one night with a minister and his wife. This was a second marriage for them. He asked me if I was angry toward men. I didn't have to think because the answer is "NO." I have no animosity toward men. Hey, half of the people in the world are men. He didn't expect me to answer that quickly. He said that most divorced women are angry with men. Isn't that just another fear box? "I don't want that again in my life" type of thinking.
By being open and not really caring one way or the other, experiences come to us. They are for our learning.
As for the way my life has turned out, I guess I don't think of it as being finished. There have been two times in my life that I thought I might be dying. Both times I told God that it was OK because I am ready for another experience and knowing me, I will probably just look around and say, "So this is what this is all about?" Hey, according to everything I have read on my contract, no one really dies. What, you haven't heard of this? That is strange because all the Avatars talk about it.
I guess I don't look at dying the way other people do. To them it is an ending but to me it is the beginning of a whole new adventure.
I try not to leave things undone. When one had a lot of unfinished things in their lives, they are attached to life. Sure I have projects but if I can't get it done within a certain period of time, then it is time to sell it, give it away, or dump it out.
Some of you know about my relationship with time. So now I will tell you about my relationship with attention. Let's say that I have 100 attention units. I put 5 of them on a clock that I want to fix and 5 of them on a pattern that I just made for Christmas presents for my friends. There is nothing in the world that I can do now, where I can give 100% of my attention. I have only 90 attention units left. So how do I get a project done well? I have a drawer that I keep notes in. I check it about 4 times a year and in this drawer are notes with the projects that I would like to finish or start.
I know of people who have many attention units stuck in so many areas that they never seem to get it together. They are always going to…. But they never do. They can't understand why their life is so chaotic. Now these are people who are not going to be happy when they leave this lifetime. Think of all the attachments that they have, like strings going every which way.
Am I please with how my life turned out? Yes! No I didn't plan it this way but I am right on schedule. Things are the way they are supposed to be. Whatever I decide to do, is just what I am supposed to do. Life is great!
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